Times have become so periodic. Relationships inbound with their responsibilities piling up. It seems as if we are growing fast and at the same time crossing ages becoming old before time. Trying hard to divide our span into miniature fragments assigning these fractions to fulfill duties of relations we are bonded to. You are born into this wonderful world, may be to fulfill your role in the infinite multiverse or may be to cherish the karmic cycle of the soul. Born free to decide yet controlled by CHOICE at every step which decides where you lead. Free not in freedom but free to choose within boundaries. Bound by relationships and governed by emotions some so true and some selfish. You try walking down the fast lane leaving innocence far behind.
Got to study hard to score high and please parents. Need to take salsa classes to impress my girlfriend. Got to date my wife to show my love for her. Got to work late nights to impress my boss for a mere appraisal. A piece of paper certifies my worth. Human beings are worth the age old piece of paper which is/was once their own creation and nothing more. Am drinkin coffee and auntie asks if that is sweet or bitter ... is the proportion okay .... for 4 seconds i stare at her trying hard to relate the question to my state and reason for the same. we dont sense the taste ... Someone so dear asks me to go out to walk down the shore ... naaaah got some task at hand.
There are instances most of us have been through, lying down on the empty terrace with no one beside except the silent wind touching you on the either side with hands crossed making a nice pillow bottom your head. And above ... right in front of your eyes you have tiny looking heavenly bodies ... Closing your eyes you try to fly through making deliberate attempts to figure out the rationale behind what ever we do or even our own existence. Most often left unanswered and depressed for what we are doing .... its nothing ...
This man is in his mid ages with a well settled life as a Senior Manager IT in a respected firm. Father of two kids and a responsible husband, saving time to make room for his self growth ... and utilizing pennies critically saving them not for himself but for his kids, wife and parents. I am far younger to him yet his punctuality humiliates my laziness ... we have become so close ... close enough to debate on independent thoughts. What matters me most are his wild thoughts which by some means are all related and meant for the people tied to him. Poor haven't seen him think for himself ... thoughts for the dead servers and routers in his firm .. thoughts for his kids way back home .. thoughts to buy gifts for his beautiful wife ... thoughts to help his aged parents survive .... but no thoughts for his soul. May be once in a while he said he wants to have some time for himself; "when will i be out for myself .." he says. I wonder when will that be .... Certainly i cant answer that ... not even for myself.
May be we are mere components inside a system designated as the WHOLE whose existence can only be reasoned by the creator Himself ... we are destined to be pulled amongst relations .. to cry, laugh and may be interact .. Sometimes the machines i work with make me wonder of the incredible complex thoughts that have been their sole reason. Its so synonymous with our own world. You play GOD; create your own code and let it run. Poor code cant explain why its there. I call it INNOCENT CODE ... which goes through the same life cycle we do. You execute and its born till you kill the process when it dies! ... The code has to run and run for the system to be consistent ... the moment it tries to go out of bound i kill it. It doesn't deserve to be within the system anymore since it doesn't obey my commands .. it ceases to exist. Is it that HE has intentionally made us feeble to struggle in the MAYA ... so agitated .. so confused ... just trying hard to be a bit DETERMINISTIC. May be its time for me to get back to work lest he ejects me out of the SYSTEM ;)
Got to study hard to score high and please parents. Need to take salsa classes to impress my girlfriend. Got to date my wife to show my love for her. Got to work late nights to impress my boss for a mere appraisal. A piece of paper certifies my worth. Human beings are worth the age old piece of paper which is/was once their own creation and nothing more. Am drinkin coffee and auntie asks if that is sweet or bitter ... is the proportion okay .... for 4 seconds i stare at her trying hard to relate the question to my state and reason for the same. we dont sense the taste ... Someone so dear asks me to go out to walk down the shore ... naaaah got some task at hand.
There are instances most of us have been through, lying down on the empty terrace with no one beside except the silent wind touching you on the either side with hands crossed making a nice pillow bottom your head. And above ... right in front of your eyes you have tiny looking heavenly bodies ... Closing your eyes you try to fly through making deliberate attempts to figure out the rationale behind what ever we do or even our own existence. Most often left unanswered and depressed for what we are doing .... its nothing ...
This man is in his mid ages with a well settled life as a Senior Manager IT in a respected firm. Father of two kids and a responsible husband, saving time to make room for his self growth ... and utilizing pennies critically saving them not for himself but for his kids, wife and parents. I am far younger to him yet his punctuality humiliates my laziness ... we have become so close ... close enough to debate on independent thoughts. What matters me most are his wild thoughts which by some means are all related and meant for the people tied to him. Poor haven't seen him think for himself ... thoughts for the dead servers and routers in his firm .. thoughts for his kids way back home .. thoughts to buy gifts for his beautiful wife ... thoughts to help his aged parents survive .... but no thoughts for his soul. May be once in a while he said he wants to have some time for himself; "when will i be out for myself .." he says. I wonder when will that be .... Certainly i cant answer that ... not even for myself.
May be we are mere components inside a system designated as the WHOLE whose existence can only be reasoned by the creator Himself ... we are destined to be pulled amongst relations .. to cry, laugh and may be interact .. Sometimes the machines i work with make me wonder of the incredible complex thoughts that have been their sole reason. Its so synonymous with our own world. You play GOD; create your own code and let it run. Poor code cant explain why its there. I call it INNOCENT CODE ... which goes through the same life cycle we do. You execute and its born till you kill the process when it dies! ... The code has to run and run for the system to be consistent ... the moment it tries to go out of bound i kill it. It doesn't deserve to be within the system anymore since it doesn't obey my commands .. it ceases to exist. Is it that HE has intentionally made us feeble to struggle in the MAYA ... so agitated .. so confused ... just trying hard to be a bit DETERMINISTIC. May be its time for me to get back to work lest he ejects me out of the SYSTEM ;)
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