Amazing it is as you wade the time you have been through pondering at instances that make your span. Quite often you find reasons at a later stage .. so late. Questions are answered but too late. Yet rarely do we get a chance to go through that time. I have been a victim of the same. Since the past 45 days approximately.. havent found a bit of solace to observe things.. Just Looking at it has become a practice lacking contemplation....
Four chairs make up a table at a decent restaurant.. Try to sit on one of these leaving the rest empty! Might be occupied with characters emerging from your imagination .. A menu lying lonely on the table waiting to be picked up by some soft hands! poor.. Wondering if someone could have been with you .. yet you are lone! .. Never mind .. just stay calm for a while.. Look around..
What catches your imagination a little while from now would possibly be the nice circular patterns of light created on the surface of the table as a result of some scientific phenomenon of light passing through a glass filled with .........
They call it refraction i guess ;)... Unlike our own random seconds over which we have no control .. formation of this pattern is essentially predictable and could fit a nice mathematical equation. For some moments the mind tends to black out amidst these beautiful patterns ... Flash! and your span circles right in front of you .. times that have been bad .. times where you might have probably wished to stay for a lifetime.. Times ..
At times its funnie to look at how the nature of the simplest things make them so beautiful and great...
Dear somehow you are connected to me.. They call it relationship. Perhaps its a Covalent "Sharing" invisible bond that binds me to you.. Infact everyone. Its just that the attributes and properties change. Everyones connected in a need based relationship .. dont mind .. i couldnt find a better way of describing it .. Probably beyond self is a myth or may be with time i will discover it.. I have been wrong on this for quite sometime .. wrong on assumptions again! hehehe
It starts randomly and progress beautifully as it grows stronger in time. One of the attributes of this bond could be termed expectation. Theres a want may be of mine .. I want you to do something implictly without being told. Thats the expectation. If somehow you fullfill it, theres no one like you for me on the planet. Else i might just be hurt .. I guess the same things goes for you too.. and for everyone bonded with the covalent.
Of course quantifying the degree of expectation is foolishness as its inherently a qualitative property. Expectation of a mother to see her kid and expectation of a young man to become a millionare are both expectations of high value and quality. I cant say which one stands better than the other. So what do we do with it?
Do we run fullfilling expectations is a question? And if so what would be the goal .. where would it end.. cuz by default these carry a rising tendency and would rise on fullfillment. You being a daughter expect your dad to call you up every day to tell you how much he loves you .. you being a friend expect me to speak.. you being a son expect me to do things .. you being a father expect that i should listen .. you being ... you being .... being .. eing .. ing ..n ..g
What if I dont fullfill it? Probably we walk away.. into our own shells .. longing .. whatever. You dont like me anymore the way you could have .. and we call it love.. loves lost the other second!
In both of the above cases it hurts one or the other in some way. For instance if I run to fullfill all yours it might hurt my ideologies at times, protection of my integrity is under threat. On the other hand if i dont fullfill it, you are hurt. Is there a way to keep things bound? Its relatively hard to suggest a solution .. But look at what I saw...
This light which is the reason for those patterns on the table which forked my thoughts on this... typically passes through a glass filled with some fluid!... transperent enough. It doesnt complain ever .. accepts everything we can give .. and probably dissolves .. We need it when thirsty .. drink it .. never asking what it feels .. it burns itself on my throat creating a cooling sensation which i like and i say "wow!" .. Water.
Accepting or questioning? Or dear do we become like water .. the universal solvent .. dissolving all you have to give .. taking it on self .. leaving the system consistent.... You got to figure that out.
Water it is i think is something you become not by choice but with time ... ... sometimes we become silent .. got no words .. having no intentions of meditating in company .. yet we are left with no choice. Being water ... i guess :)
I am but an assimilation of what I have seen and experienced and one of the most beautiful experiences is you .. do I have to prove it? Am afraid I cant.
Four chairs make up a table at a decent restaurant.. Try to sit on one of these leaving the rest empty! Might be occupied with characters emerging from your imagination .. A menu lying lonely on the table waiting to be picked up by some soft hands! poor.. Wondering if someone could have been with you .. yet you are lone! .. Never mind .. just stay calm for a while.. Look around..
What catches your imagination a little while from now would possibly be the nice circular patterns of light created on the surface of the table as a result of some scientific phenomenon of light passing through a glass filled with .........
They call it refraction i guess ;)... Unlike our own random seconds over which we have no control .. formation of this pattern is essentially predictable and could fit a nice mathematical equation. For some moments the mind tends to black out amidst these beautiful patterns ... Flash! and your span circles right in front of you .. times that have been bad .. times where you might have probably wished to stay for a lifetime.. Times ..
At times its funnie to look at how the nature of the simplest things make them so beautiful and great...
Dear somehow you are connected to me.. They call it relationship. Perhaps its a Covalent "Sharing" invisible bond that binds me to you.. Infact everyone. Its just that the attributes and properties change. Everyones connected in a need based relationship .. dont mind .. i couldnt find a better way of describing it .. Probably beyond self is a myth or may be with time i will discover it.. I have been wrong on this for quite sometime .. wrong on assumptions again! hehehe
It starts randomly and progress beautifully as it grows stronger in time. One of the attributes of this bond could be termed expectation. Theres a want may be of mine .. I want you to do something implictly without being told. Thats the expectation. If somehow you fullfill it, theres no one like you for me on the planet. Else i might just be hurt .. I guess the same things goes for you too.. and for everyone bonded with the covalent.
Of course quantifying the degree of expectation is foolishness as its inherently a qualitative property. Expectation of a mother to see her kid and expectation of a young man to become a millionare are both expectations of high value and quality. I cant say which one stands better than the other. So what do we do with it?
Do we run fullfilling expectations is a question? And if so what would be the goal .. where would it end.. cuz by default these carry a rising tendency and would rise on fullfillment. You being a daughter expect your dad to call you up every day to tell you how much he loves you .. you being a friend expect me to speak.. you being a son expect me to do things .. you being a father expect that i should listen .. you being ... you being .... being .. eing .. ing ..n ..g
What if I dont fullfill it? Probably we walk away.. into our own shells .. longing .. whatever. You dont like me anymore the way you could have .. and we call it love.. loves lost the other second!
In both of the above cases it hurts one or the other in some way. For instance if I run to fullfill all yours it might hurt my ideologies at times, protection of my integrity is under threat. On the other hand if i dont fullfill it, you are hurt. Is there a way to keep things bound? Its relatively hard to suggest a solution .. But look at what I saw...
This light which is the reason for those patterns on the table which forked my thoughts on this... typically passes through a glass filled with some fluid!... transperent enough. It doesnt complain ever .. accepts everything we can give .. and probably dissolves .. We need it when thirsty .. drink it .. never asking what it feels .. it burns itself on my throat creating a cooling sensation which i like and i say "wow!" .. Water.
Accepting or questioning? Or dear do we become like water .. the universal solvent .. dissolving all you have to give .. taking it on self .. leaving the system consistent.... You got to figure that out.
Water it is i think is something you become not by choice but with time ... ... sometimes we become silent .. got no words .. having no intentions of meditating in company .. yet we are left with no choice. Being water ... i guess :)
I am but an assimilation of what I have seen and experienced and one of the most beautiful experiences is you .. do I have to prove it? Am afraid I cant.
1 comments:
You are ONE beautiful blogger I have ever come across. Nice display of your feelings especially by connecting it to the universal solvent.
Liked the style of you being ... you being .... being .. eing .. ing ..n ..g.
All the best for everything.
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